The lovely floatiness of half a bottle of red wine and valium after a productive night at home...so good.

In case anyone actually reads this anymore...I have a tumblr now.

Yup.


*bleat*

monsterdolly.tumblr.com

I'm staying at Brigitte's until I can move into my new house on the South side. While I'm sad to be leaving Thornbury and its lovely crazies and High Street, I am thrilled to be living in a real house again.

It's hard to believe that the year is already drawing to a close. A bit eventful, tiring and not without the odd epiphany...not all bad but certainly not all good either I suppose. I've made my peace with some big things.

Anyway. In celebration of Brig's first day of her new job, my new house, and completing my first semester of tafe among other things, we have triple Brie, farmhouse cheddar, blue vein (ew), prosciutto, and the crowning glory...one of the bottles of wine that I brought back from Bordeaux.

Capsicums and eggplant are roasting in the oven for pasta later.

I got a call from NMIT this afternoon too, asking if I want to do their new Science course - I'm not completely decided yet, but I think it's going to be a yes. Whilst I am passionate about fashion...I love astronomy too much not to at least try and educate myself.

Me

life has changed pretty drastically in the last few weeks

21:46 Oliver

maybe you're in need of change? or growing out of old habits?

dare I say it...maturing?

21:46 Me

perhaps the reverse

embracing my age and the fact that I can let myself make mistakes

I don't have to work in an office to make life work

I don't have to talk to the people who don't make me happy...

I can take time to be creative and take chances and try things and change in any way that I want to

and forget anyone who wants to judge me for it

It's ten minutes to eleven. If I don't go to the shops soon, this will be the third night in a row that I won't have eaten dinner. In fact, today the only thing I've eaten is an instant green curry and a little chocolate mousse.

It's not that I'm trying not to eat; it's just that I've been too busy thinking of other things to really think of eating. And it's not that I'm not hungry; I have been, just not in that tummy rumbling kind of way. The kind of hungry that you absent-mindedly put aside as feeling a little out of sorts.

The past few weeks have given me all sorts of out of sorts. Come to think of it, it has been a stressful month.

I know that when I walk to the shop, I won't feel like listening to music and the fluorescent lights are going to burn my eyes after the dim street lights. And when I get home, I'm going to cook a lacklustre dish of pasta with the most basic, boring tomato sauce that I can be bothered to make. I'll start it and be suddenly not even out of sorts hungry anymore.

Then I'll probably sit in bed, with a book in front of my face, and it will look like I'm reading to anyone watching. I might even turn the pages once or twice.


I think I'll get takeaway.

So...livejournal. It has been a while. It's not that I don't have anything to write here...but yanno.

I think about going away adventuring again all the time. When I have the money again, and no obligations, I have decided that I want to go on another trip, this time to Japan for ten days or so, and then I will get a sublease in New York for 2-3 months. I can't really see this happening until I finish studying (and I haven't even started yet) but it's nice to dream.

What else is new? I am growing plants! The front courtyard of my place has finally been cleared so I decided to grow some things from seeds. I have peas, cherry tomatoes, strawberries, watermelon, and capsicum growing. I am also trying to revive some basil that I bought but it seems determined to die. It is very cathartic to sit on my verandah with a few pots and some dirt, and make things grow. I usually have some kind of gothy or metal type stuff blaring from my bedroom window at the same time so I sometimes wonder whether my peas might mutate into triffids and attack me in my sleep. They are growing at an alarming rate. PEAS OF DOOM.

I don't know. Life is just...doing its thing, me, I'm just trying to relax and take things as they come. I'm trying not to think too much. I am concentrating on my self esteem and doing the things that make me happy. Trying to plan the things that I want to do in the future, but not obsess over it as I am sometimes prone to doing. I've discovered that what will happen will happen, and even if things don't unfold the way you expected them to, the end result will probably still be the same.

Happenings of late...in no particular order.

I went to see Star Trek. OMG so much win. Unfortunately Checkov did not say 'nuclear wessels' but I loved it anyway. Now that I have seen it at the movies I don't feel so bad about downloading it tonight. I've also watched Wolverine (not at the movies) which I thought was rather boring compared to the rest of the Xmen series. Dare I say that there wasn't enough firepower...? I saw the preview for the Transformers sequel while at iMax and I am full of squee about that. Robots and explosions. Really, how can you go wrong?

Travel plans are going well. Only about 3 weeks now, I think. *cue suspenseful music* I've stopped worrying about it so much and am looking forward to getting out of this crap Melbourne weather and saying hello to sunny Spain. The thought of five weeks of adventuring makes me a happy bunny.

Also, I want to take up cello lessons when I get back. I've always wanted to try and there's no time like the (almost) present. :D

Booooring. Just like Carnavas only they've added strings and a heavier sound.

I'd still go to see them if they tour though. :D

Ow, my heaD. :(

I suck at wrapping presents.